Antjie KrogSouth AfricaWriting2006
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The most valuable aspect of my stay here at Civitella was uninterrupted time. It meant that I could start writing whenever I wanted in the morning. I could break for tea when I needed to. I could go for a walk and come back with a brilliant breakthrough to a structural problem or a
beautiful image or the line of a poem. i could go to my room and read in the chair until after midnight. In bed I could think about what I was doing and where I wanted it to go. I could do that solely because I was unreachable in the castle from countrymen, phones, family and foes. Second, the time was uninterrupted because someone else bought the groceries, cooked the food, laid the table, washed the dishes AND RESPECTED MY TIME. This is a luxury for which I have no words and which ordinary money cannot buy. 

The Unhomely

the lane is a spine
the lane constructs itself up the hill
the lane exudes its fragrance with turpentine and pine, with balm
   mulberry and spirals of pencil-blue cedars
and being from neither here nor there, she cannot begin to know
how blue green is
how olive the purple
how motionless the cypresses and the folds of their capes as
   lightning sears the sky
and the earth rumbles back on the brink of grief


the lane is a castle
the lane is the only way to the castle
the lane intensifies into sweet chestnut and sage, white willow,
   sycamore and ash
and she from the marginals of the world, is not there to feel
how the broom rustles its fragrant earlobes
how a hue of saffron glides towards those talking in the twilight
how alive the dark is, how grainy the bolt
how bloody the wingtips of swallows flash against the morning sun
how aloof a pear sings in a saucer on a table of granite
the very moment the castle sinks into a roaring gas-flame of midday trees


the lane shimmers like a knight
the lane marches up the slope
the lane preserves itself with maple, with oak, with lucern, buckthorn and elm
the lane feels the only decipherer of the abandonment of swifts
  of how the barn owl lets its lonely chisel sounds slip
of how sparrows snip and snip deeper into gathered shrouds
of dew
how milk thistle and chicory bleed blue butterflies from their stems
in the lane
how cicadas burnish the black figs
of how, from hand to hand, an ice-blue shoulder slides from
the cross
and the unhomely fade into frescoes


the lane holds to the word: reign
the lane forms the self through the self
the lane knows that generations of Ranieris are listening down the stone passages
to whose feet sound on the gravel
from beyond the lane she knows the lines are drawn
but is unaware whether its by bones lying around in cupboards like weapons
or by dogs furiously storming towards the mauve smear of a hare
or the bursting of pheasants into flecked whirring buttons
or the devastating blonde scabs of recently mowed fields
smoldering behind the lane where some notes drift


the lane endures the sun
the lane absorbs all water all sap all power
the lane is a survivor - the cedars grow their hard silver tassels
the gnats rise like sleaze to the iron bars and deep slit windows of the stone walls
but the lane, oh, the lane is impenetrable
as the group, leaning towards each other with their worn-out hearts, knows
that among the concepts they discuss, she’s not even a shadow
she who undertook never to be sad in this world
is learning that beyond this beyond is another beyond
and beyond that always radiantly the lane